Good bye 2007 Hello 2008

Yes 2008 is creeping up...in a matter of hours that is. Have a accomplished all I wanted in 2007 well not exactly but I did a good job. I'm happy with were I am right now... I love my family, I'm deeply in love with my husband, I adore my children to death, & I'm lucky and blessed to have great friends. In 2008 I'm going to hold my-self "accountable" for the life I'm living. I need to take more responsibility for me cuz in fact I'm the one living this life no one else. I made a list of 100 items (although it hasn't actually reached 100 items yet) of things I want to accomplish in my lifetime. My goal this year is to work on that list while working on me...I think the 2 go hand in hand so it shouldn't be to hard. So here is to a new start at being a better person, a person accountable for their actions and reactions.

I should say that I started a blog to keep track of silly stuff the kids did, a way to document their lives and keep record, but I think this is going to be more about being a mom, a wife, a friend, a daughter, etc. I don't claim to be a perfect speller or have the best grammar!! Lets face it this isn't for you it's for me. SO if errors come up understand I'm a dork and I don't really care....I just need to get stuff off my chest. I know I make the mistakes & I can live with them can you??

Oh and lastly I have been wanting to post why I called this toots talk....My grandma was always called toots by my papa..well some how my brothers started to call me that and it stuck so Toots I am to them...why not the world.

I am so thankful for...

1st and formost my family!!
I'm blessed and thankful for our amazing children ...I love them with more than I ever though possible...I love watching them grow into who they want to be.
I'm thankful for my amazing husband who loves me and our kids for everything we are...who is willing to put up with all my little quirks...my little messes...who would do anything for our perfect family!!
I'm thankful for my exstended family those that I'm given & those I have chosen. Those people that have helped me to be who I am...the friends that are simply the best of friends...The family that knows when all you need is a hug and an ear to listen too.
I'm thankful that I have bills to pay, grocery's to buy, presents to give, creative outlets, for my camera, a woodburning fireplace, a cozy bed to sleep in, cute clothes to wear for me and my kids, books to read, phonecalls to make, the internet to gather knoledge, great relationships with important people (i.e. the kids doctors, and teachers.) I'm simply happy that I have the opportunity to live this life and I hope that I can live it to my fullest not just for me but my kids & hubby too. Happy thanksgiving!!!

Bad Blogger!!!

SO much has happened in a short amount of time. I'm a bad blogger I have decided. Why did I start this if I'm not going to maintain it. well here goes another shot. How about a few month recap!


Soccer started and is just about over my kids look ADORABLE in their soccer outfits. Go Trexs!!!! Our coach's name is Rex and our color is green so it fit (my idea.) We have had a great season. Love being on the same team as our Best Friends. Love that hubby is the assistant coach. Love that we get to spend some good family time together. This has been a great experience from day one.


We officially have a kindergartner...very hard to believe. We are sooo very lucky to have an amazing teacher, Mrs. B. She can be a bit scatter brained but where she needs to be she is right on! She was on top of the school nurse and took care of what we needed for Little Buddies allergies. I only wish we had a peanut free school. But we are making do with amazing parents and an amazing teacher, not to mention a little boy who is smarter than I give him credit for sometimes.

AJ loves school plain and simple! I think we are lucky there too! He settled in better than I thought he would. He loves to do the art projects. He loves to read. He loves to bring sharing. He loves to have free time with his partner Megan. He loves Mrs. B soooo much. He loves earning pennies & happy faces. He loves playing in the sand, even if it is yucky and muddy. He loves the field trips. Last week was the 1st time riding a school bus. Again he loved it.



We also officially have a pre-schooler. That took a lot of work on both, her part and my part. She wasn't exactly potty trained perfect by the time we started which was hard by itself. But add the fact that she didn't want to be there and we have kayos. Her 1st day of pre-school she cried for the 1st hour. It was so very hard on both of us. She knows the teacher and she had hungout so many times when big brother at school she shouldn't have been scared. We talked about school, read books about school, and she was soooo excited to go. She let me put her name tag on perfect. She went in class perfect. Then I left and she (and I)lost it, tears and screaming for a full hour! I sat in the hallway with her brother thinking "had I made the wrong choice forcing her into something she didn't want to do?" She wanted to be there I thought but was I forcing her? Mrs. K said when she stopped crying she was perfect and interested in everything. So the 2nd day we went, she only cried for 30 min.and came home very excited. On the 3rd day she only cried for 10 min., so on the 4th day I ventured in to take a few photos and she wasn't crying she was in heaven, happy as could be to be in class. As I write this we are well into October and she runs into class without giving me a kiss or hug. "bye mom" an she is off. Amazing how things work...it was the right choice just like everyone said. It was just a hard one.

Halloween is next week and I can't wait to trick-or-treat with the kids...sweet pea is gonna be Minnie mouse and Bubble Boy is going to be a ghostbuster should make for some interesting photos. I will try to post!!

Happy July4th!!!!

We are off to a Parade & off to a BBQ. Yippy don't you love holidays when family can just get together & hang out!!! I do...no stress of having a house clean, no stress of looking perfect in your "special" clothes, no stress of gift giving (is it the right gift etc.) Just hanging out...I love the 4th!! To bad fireworks are so dangerous, when I was a kid we had a blast literally with fireworks. My uncle use to take us to the beach and we would shoot them into the ocean off the end of his truck. SOOO very fun dangerous I know, but oooh so fun. Here's to a great 4th today...I'll post a photo later meanwhile here is my fav. of Sweet Pea from last year.

Enjoying the Summer

Well July just crept up didn't it!!! Ina few days my little girl will be 3....WOW!!!

June was a world wind of a month....we hit Gilroy Gardens(use-to-be Bonfante Gardens). Staying a few days with Stacy while down there. We rushed home to Tilden Park, Playgroup & dinner with the Draggoos. I can't believe we have already seen 3 movies, that is more than we have seen in 3 years! !st we sawSurf's Up, then Hubby & I got a date & saw Knocked up, (totally for the benefit of hubby & his little bit of eye candy!!!) I cried through a few parts....I know a comedy & I'm crying. Then yesterday the kids & I saw Ratatouille. I'm enjoying the summer & all it has to offer. I'm looking forward to little adventures weekly. The kids are loving it too!!! Here's to a great summer!!!

Happy Anniversary 7 years in the making....

WOW 7 years goes by so fast!!! But 14 went by even fast. Yes we have been together for 14 years married for 7. We have been though so much, so much growing, & so many little details. Hummm Maybe a quick recap is in order. Lets see we both graduated college (him WAY before me). He has been at his dream job for lets see 10 or is it 11 years. We bought a house, countless cars & a tent trailer. We got a dog, (our 1st baby) then we had 2 real babies, "little miss" & "bubble boy." Amazing how life moves so fast, yet while you are living it day to day it doesn't seem to move at all.

End of School Changes

Well here we are at the last day of actual school. I can't believe the past few years have flown by so fast. Still more changes are ahead of us, well him more than me. It was a hard day full of a few tears...I'm sure Friday will be worse with an actual ceremony.

Choices!!!

Change and choices...hummmm!!! I have choices in my life!!! We all know that...but I have been thinking about the choices I am making these days. Am I making the right ones for my family, for my kids?? Am I making the best choices for myself & my hubby?? It was funny that Ali today wrote about choices in her blog (yes I'm addicted to reading blogs). I guess reading about it made me think a bit deeper about it!!! The only person I can control is my self...I can influence others but ultimate every body(even my kids) are going to make their own choices.

Bubble Boy is already learning about choices, by understanding when he has done something wrong, more often we try to explain he isn't a bad person he just made the wrong choice, or a bad choice. Explaining that to a 5 year old isn't the easiest. But he seems to be understand the concept of choosing his life path.

I need to work on my choices, both physically & emotionally. Am I choosing to be sad, morning the loss of no more kids OR am I rejoicing in the fact that hubby & I are so incredible lucky to have 2 amazing children. An emotional choice I need to work on. A choice we made together for the better of our family. I'm good with that choice I just need to work on the emotional attachment I have to it. (Give me a bit more time) At least I know that I need to work on it...isn't the 1st step toward solving something acknowledging it.

Back to Choices...hummm & back to me making choices...I get to choose who I want to be, how I want to be it. I get to choose how I react to the kids, hubby, friends & family. I get to choose how much I let something bother me. I get to choose so much so why is it so hard to know what are the right choices?? I can choose how to react to the kids when things don't go good...I ultimately get to choose what type of parent, wife, friend, daughter, etc. I want to be. So here is to better choices & living a better life!!! Let's hope the choices I make in the future will be reminded of the fact that I get to choose them...I can take a bit more time to react....that is O.K.

CHANGE!!!

Why is change such a huge part of our lives?? Why do changes constantly have to happen?? Some are good some, some bad, & some just a part of the everyday. Reading Heidi Swapp's Blog today and she talks about change "After all, change is really the ONLY constant in our lives. It happens all the time. it’s the only thing we can really count on! and for most of us… maybe we resist change a little." My life is such a constant change & I guess I have never stopped to look at it. I try to go with it, I try to figure it out, I try to change the change. What I think I need to do is accept that change happens and figure out some way to just GO with it. hummm.....

Amazing what can happen in a weeks time!!!

1st I know I haven't been a regular blogger but I'm gonna get over it so you must too...

Sweet Pea has decided that she will be now sleeping in her own bed. UGH!!! on my part Wonderful on her part. To our surprise Monday Night she announced she wanted to sleep in her bed, so off we went with blanket, pillow & books in hand. She fell asleep no problem. Well I laid in bed waiting not so patiently for her to wake and call us in...didn't happen till about 11:30. Night 2 She again wanted to sleep in there this time with me by her side on the floor, not a very comfortable spot but if we are gonna do this here we go. Not sure when she climbed out but she ended up on the floor with me. Night 3 Wed. night she fell asleep on the couch & let daddy transfer her, not waking till about 3ish. So by then we are thinking this is where she has decided to stay. So yesterday came the bribe, If you can be a big girl and sleep all night in your own bed you will get a treat. Well sure enough 7 came and she was in the hall asking for me and looking for her treat. Off to target we ran and my big girl is officially in her own bed. How sad for me how awesome for her. Funny thing is Bubble Boy decided one month before he was 3 that he would be in his own bed. I guess this is the magic age for sleeping Independence. I just wish I had some warning!!!

Daffadil Hill

This past weekend I went on a grand adventure with my girlfriends. We headed up to Pioneer for a bit of much needed R & R. We started with a great night of movies, the best pizza and great conversation. Sat we drove a bit up to Daffodil Hill. One of the most beautiful sights I have ever seen. Between us we must have taken like 200 pictures of flowers alone. We finished Sat off with more movies, srapbooking and a dip in the hot tub. Sunday we relaxed more then headed to Sutter Creek for lunch, only to find a city that closes for lunch by 3. So no eating for us...but off to the Dollar Tree to find treasures for our kids....then we made our journey home. A great weekend and a great adventure. I love spending good time with good friends..it is very refreshing!! Thanks ladies!!

I should blog more

I know I know...I set up this little blog so I could blog...and I can't seem to be jump right in and blog. Maybe since I have been in such a funk lately, grumpy, depressed and just in a funk. I should be the happiest "little miss carrie" on the earth...I just came off a great weekend, I have a great hubby, I have great kids, great friends, and an interesting dog, but I just haven't been able to shake the funk. SOOO this morning I got up and worked out for an hour I did a 20 min video, then a 15 min. ab video, then the bike for 20 min. you would think after that I would have sweat the funk out...but I just can't shake it. I need to invent a funk remover. Help someone send me a funk remover...seriously what is the deal!!!! UGH

Is he really 5??

Some one pinch me or wake me up....He is 5 wow!!!Amazing having a 5 year old changes my perspective ever so slightly...I feel like I'm missing something...did I catch everything I think I needed to in the first 5 years??!! Where did the time truly go?? How did he "all-of-a-sudden" turn 5?? I think I'm gonna focus during the next few weeks on scrapbooking & journaling what happened in 5 years. The little things I don't want to forget or let him forget. A child's memory grows so fast so many things are easily forgotten. I would love to know little things about me when I was 5 ...I sure don't remember my everyday life. Little glimpses of my 1st part of school, a friends, or what did I get for Christmas? What did I have for breakfast, what was on T.V. that I liked?? Who did I play with...all just a blur to me. Maybe Bubble Boy will remember with a bit of help from me. 5 years way to fast....and I'm sure 5 more will go just the same.

Wow a blog....I never thought I would venture into this little adventure...but I'm finding myself drawn more and more to it....as a way to track my kids lives through my eyes. SO maybe this will be a place just to keep my secrets...maybe a place to share my feelings I can't really get out...maybe it will be public maybe private...I will know when I get there what I want it to be. For now it is fun....just to get it going....Happy Birthday Bubble Boy...wow 5 years old....I'm not ready for this yet.